#contemplation

I am struggling to stop smoking again.

Earlier today I was sitting at a store and the lady next to me was eating some potato fries. I badly wanted them.

I thought, Maybe I could get some fries as an incentive for me to quit smoking.

I didn't. I decided to pick a chocolate bar. I didn't. It felt wrong.

I was at the entrance of a Chinese fasfood and I decided that I want to feast on noodles.

I still didn't.

I feel terribly lonely.

Now I'm at home, sipping my non-caloric tea and looking forward to sleeping.

I'm excited to meal prep later because I'm cooking shell food.